If I'm honest...

As I stare at this blank screen trying to find where to start, there's so much on my heart I could say. I could talk about how difficult yet beautifully incredible this year has been for me. I could talk about the depression I went through, the anxiety attacks I've faced, or about how my life was completely changed for the best when I went to 21 Project with Circuit Riders in Kona, HI this summer. I think what I really want to say, is that God is faithful. Period. He's Good, He's kind, and just because we can't see the sun, doesn't mean it's not shining. The clouds don't determine the faithfulness of the sun. God is good even when life is bad. God truly has never left me, and never will. In the middle of the night when I'm woke by anxiety, I ask God to be near me, and immediately feel His presence right there with me. This year alone I've been practically homeless, nearly starved more than once, yet each time, God provides just in time. In order to attend 21 Project in Hawaii, I couch surfed for 6 weeks straight proceeding my flight out to save money instead of paying rent. I ate mainly at work where I was allowed to have one free acai bowl a shift, and worked 3 jobs in order to pay for all the expenses of the 21 Project school, housing, flight, etc. I regret nothing. It was by far one of the best decisions I've made. Being in Kona, HI at the YWAM base for the 21 Project School re-opened my mind to a desire I've had since I was 13 years old. That is, to attend a Discipleship Training School with YWAM. Which is a 3 month lecture phase on the base in Hawaii, learning and being equipped to go into the nations to do ministry in the hard and dark places. Following the 3 month lecture phase on base is a 3 month outreach phase in another country(s). With health and fitness having always been one of my main passions and pursuits, I've always wished there were a way missions and fitness could work together. While I was in 21 Project, I heard about something called "Respect The Corners" or "RTC". RTC is a functional fitness Discipleship Training School track specifically with this YWAM base in Kona, HI. They teach both the proper form in functional fitness, how to be a coach meanwhile applying spiritual principles and also sitting in the spiritual equipping lectures. RTC is aiming to train, teach and launch 1,000 coaches into nations across the earth. Using functional fitness as a common denominator in different cultures, and an avenue to go into more closed countries since we are presented as "fitness instructors" rather than "missionaries". RTC has discovered how to incorporate functional fitness and doing missions, telling people about the love and pursuit of God in a new way! In fact, they not only teach fitness, but they use it to go to physically difficult places to get to like the Himalayan mountains! Each year a few teams are sent to the Himalayan mountains to trek and bring Bible's to the people of Nepal in small villages that can't be reached any other way but by foot. (I hope to be apart of one of the teams that treks in Nepal! As well as one of the 1,000 coaches that is sent out to another nation!). I decided to come back to my parents house here in East Tennessee until the school begins in January, to be home for the holidays, my best friend's wedding and so i can hopefully raise the funds needed in order to do the RTC program. Working and saving every penny to put toward the tuition, selling my items, selling stickers I created that say "Say Yes" with the concept of saying Yes to wherever and whatever God is leading you to do in life, both glamourous and not glamourous. Would you prayerfully consider giving a one-time gift to my DTS? Whether it be $5,$15,$25,$50, etc -every dollar given is so appreciated! (I'm still in need of about $2,500 by Jan 4th for the lecture phase). I've learned with fundraising that often people think "oh someone else will give" or "she'll get it even without my help" but that's the point of community, we all need each other, and we all can play a part that matters. Every small bit counts and helps! Regardless if you're able to give or not, I pray you're blessed to be a blessing and that you see God's love in new ways everyday!
Thanks for reading!

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It's okay, to not be "okay".

It’s been an extremely long time since I’ve written a transparent post about what’s going on in my life, so, here it goes.

To give you a brief understanding of where I’m at in life and to better comprehend the context of this piece, let me briefly update you on my life currently. Last June, I began praying about moving to the Nashville area to be closer and more involved with a missions organization here called Caleb Company. This non-profit organization teaches people about God’s heart for Israel, holding training schools on their base in a Nashville suburb, then in Israel/Middle East  as part of the training. This organization has truly changed my life and has propelled me to dig deep in the roots of Christianity and to observe Messianic practices such as recognizing  Shabbat (sabbath) according to how the Bible teaches us to. 

So, all that to say, I moved here to the Nashville area about a month ago to be more involved and apart of what God is doing in this ministry.
I knew that it was inevitable that moving would have it’s challenges, however I knew it was where God was leading me to, so I decided to say “Yes” and embrace whatever that was going to look like. Here I am, a month into this new season, new journey and new city, and I must say, it has been one challenging month to say the least.  

I’ve never really been a person to have extreme anxiety, I’ve always been more of the independent, “happy-go-lucky” one. However, I’ve experienced and have been battling more anxiety this past month than I have in a very very long time. It seems as if something really stressful has happened every week since I’ve been here. Serious health issues, family situations, relationships, financial stress, learning a new city, etc. I’ve lost a significant amount of weight (for my body size) in the past month due to extreme anxiety and stress (also since i’ve been eating a lot cleaner and working out more to hep cope with the anxiety). Some mornings, I wake up and feeling anxiety the moment I’m awake, always nervous and on edge. Constantly feeling nauseous and having a hard time eating. Over thinking, not breathing but rather “surviving” and just being really fearful.
Through all of this, I have consistently seen the faithful hand of God in each situation. He is always ever so gentle and reminding me that He is always with me, always. Regardless of what I feel, He is good, He is faithful, and He truly never leaves my side. Not too long ago, I felt myself begin to have a panic attack, I ran to the kitchen, got some water and began to pray over myself. I felt God’s presence so strong, and the anxiety attack disappear. I’m saying all this to say, that things like anxiety, stress, fear, etc are all very, very real things that I think we can sometimes discredit or try to downplay. As believers, it can be hard for us to admit we struggle with these things, it can even be shameful if we admit we are struggling. I want to just publically be transparent, open and honest and say, it’s real, and it’s okay to not be okay. God doesn’t expect perfection from us, He just wants us to be real and honest about what is going on. It was when I stopped trying to act like I didn’t need His help and admitted my extreme anxiety and fear to Him that I finally felt His peace sweep over me for the first time in weeks. God knows what you’re dealing with, He isn’t ashamed of you for not trusting Him, He understands we’re human, we deal with fear. Awhile ago I was praying and basically told God, “this is my mess, I’m going to get myself out of it”. To which I felt Him reply, “Karissa, I walk through your hell WITH you, I don’t say “good luck, I’ll be here when you get out”, instead, I grab your hand and say “let’s go!” we’re in a relationship, I’m in this WITH you”. Every moment I feel anxiety and fear trying to terrorize me, I have to remind myself of His words, and His truth. I know that God isn’t “allowing” this to happen, but it happens because we live in a fallen world, and the choices made by me, and/or other people can affect us in a positive or negative way. let me be clear with this, my anxiety, stress and fear is NOT God’s fault, nor is He by any means “allowing” it to happen. He can however, turn any situation and use it for His good. It’s important to not mistaken His goodness for “allowing” something to happen. By no means am I through this battle of anxiety, in fact, this morning when I woke up I felt it. But, I know that because God is with me, I have victory in my veins and this will not conquer me. I often have to pep talk myself throughout the day, and give myself the advice I frequently give to those I talk to on the crisis hotline I work for, and that is “Everything’s going to be okay, maybe not right now, maybe not tomorrow or next week, but in time, everything’s going to be okay” and just breathe. It’s funny how when you deal with anxiety, you don’t really realize that you’re not breathing, you’re more like surviving, it feels likes you’re constantly suffocating. Which is another sign that anxiety isn’t from God, but rather the enemy, God gives life, (He gave the breath of life!) the enemy is constantly trying to impose death, and trying to steal our breath away. In conclusion, God is good always, He is faithful regardless, and He is kind beyond necessity. I’m going to be okay, I don’t want pity or sympathy, I simply wanted to share what I felt a lot others could relate to.

I attached the link to a video my best friend, Nathan created to show about anxiety when he was dealing with it himself. The video impacted me so deeply I wanted to share it here.  https://vimeo.com/185184458

I rather be mis-matching!

Do you remember what it was like to be a child? Before someone told you who to be? Before you sought someone else's approval, before you forgot who you were? Remember being wild and free? Not caring what others said, because you were happy just being who God made you to be? All the crazy ideas, outfits, and hair-do's? It didn't matter if your clothes were matching or not, if you liked it you wore it. You didn't give a second thought to what "so-and-so" might think. You like it, that's all that mattered. You were young, and free. Free from caring what others may think. I remember being a little girl, not matching my clothes or understanding why I needed to "look nice" for picture day. My parents would inform me that I hadn't matched my clothes, I couldn't understand what that had to do with anything or why that mattered (-and sometimes I still don't, haha!) As long as I liked what I was wearing, that's all that mattered. (Note* even though I often didn't match, and my parents knew it, they let me be, they let me be me.)

 I'm not sure when it happened exactly, but eventually, years later, I began to care what people thought about me. More than just clothes deep. I cared what they thought about the way I laughed, and even what I would laugh at. I cared if they thought I was being too "overbearing" in my personality or if I was "too happy". I started to become imprisoned to who I thought they wanted me to be (someone so opposite from who I really was, ) I now know that this was because it wasn't really me.) If you ask me, I became mean and very unhappy during that time, yet I didn't know why. The innocence and freedom of being myself had been stolen and now imprisoned me to striving for the approval of others. It was a constant battle. I was never good enough, it was draining. I cared so much what people thought about me, I lived in constant fear and torment that people wouldn't like me or accept me. I think this may have been the cause to what eventually drove me to be slightly anorexic in my young teen years.

At some point, I believe it was at the same youth camp I was set free from the anorexia that I realized what had happened. What was stolen from me. The "real" me had been taken from me and I hadn't even realized it. The closer I got to God, the more free I felt to be me. Slowly over the years, I've let go of my fear of not being liked, understood or accepted. In the process of undoing all the knots and lies the devil tangled in my mind and used to keep me from truly being myself, and accepting myself.
The most harm we will ever do to ourselves, and the world, is to lie to ourselves. As I've gone through this undoing and untangling process, I make myself be honest with myself, being brutally honest with myself about why I've let myself believe lies that are hurting me, what fear are the lies rooted in? Why have I felt safe allowing myself to believe this lie? Instead, what is the truth? Who had God really created me to be? Why haven't I allowed myself to be that person? (-if after all, being who I really am is when I'm happiest). If at the end of the day, it's just Him and I, then who cares what other people think?
Being vulnerable and honest about who you are will cause others to do the same. When we are real about being broke, shattered, imperfect, crazy, energetic, excited, genuine, sweet, kind (the list goes on) human beings, we permit others to be who they are as well. I rather be mis-matching and be so happy with being myself and who He has made me to be, than to be conformed to what others think of me and be miserable knowing it isn't me. I don't know if there's a greater tragedy than to live a life that isn't true to yourself. Living imprisoned to someone else because we care what they may think. Who cares. God loves you and accepts you. That's all you need. So it's time you stop hiding. After all, He sees you anyway.

Skinny Vs. Curvy

In today’s world and society, there’s an incredible amount of emphasis put on body image, especially for women. As women, we see images of girls in bikinis in magazines as we go through the check out line and are constantly bombarded with the idea that “skinny” is beautiful. We are often told, if we want to be beautiful, we need to be skinny.

On the contrast side, we have those in rebellion against this movement that say “real women have curves” putting down the girls that are skinny and often calling them shallow or conceited. These women think they are telling ladies that they don’t need to be “skinny” to be “beautiful” (-which is very much so true). However, they are instead insulting the girls that are skinny and telling them that a guy will not desire them because “a real man likes curves”.

We have two extreme sides, one of which is saying you’re only beautiful if you’re skinny, the other saying, guys only like curvy/thick girls. -Neither of which truly honor God in the design of how He created us uniquely.

So how do we find a balance between these two? These two different sides seem to be in a constant battle against each other, firing shots and insulting the other.

I do not agree with either of these arguments, are here is why.

To define “beauty” as being “skinny” or a certain number on the scale, is insulting to a God who uniquely designed each one of us in a completely different way. We are constantly trying to compare “apples to oranges”. God did NOT create every girl to be a skin-and-bones bikini model. Nor did He create every girl to have curves. There is not “right” or “wrong” body type. We insult God's creation at the expense of satisfying the opinions of man. We are convinced of society's distorted standards rather than God's absolute truth's.

The “Embrace the skin you’re in” movement, is a great movement, that I agree with, with a few concerns. When we tell girls to “embrace the skin you’re in” we are also telling them and allowing them to continue to live an unhealthy lifestyle. When we tell girls to “embrace the skin you’re in” we are communicating to them, that they don’t need to value their bodies enough to the point of feeding it nutrition it needs to survive. Being unhealthy can be dangerous to your health, by eating unhealthy, a large list of illnesses and diseases can develop. Some such as diabetes, high blood pressure, joint aches, headaches, foggy memory, the list goes on.

The bottom line, it comes down to being healthy. Eat right, and be active. Your body WILL go to it’s natural form, shape and size when you decide to be healthy. By eating healthy, and being active, you will feel better, not necessarily because your body is “in shape”, but because you will have more energy and your mind will be more clear. As well as because of something called “endorphins”. God created girls (and men!) to be all different shapes and sizes! Our job, isn’t to fuss about the number on a scale, but rather to make sure we are giving our bodies the correct nutrients it needs to flourish at the level God created it to be at.

If you’re healthy, and you don’t fall into society’s “average weight” for your height, age, etc scale, then so what? Embrace the skin you’re in! God wants you to be healthy, so you can live more effectively and longer. Forget about the scale and just be active! Have fun with life! Find an activity that you like to do, and do it! Biking, hiking, swimming, gymnastics, football, golfing, baseball, running, the list goes on! Whatever it is! Just do it! You’ll find yourself much happier and content with your overall appearance anyway! God has made you different from everyone else, so stop trying to fit in the mold they are trying to push you in! Some of us are stronger than others and have bigger builds, others are smaller and more delicate. But at the end of the day, we are all uniquely loved by an incredible God, that doesn’t care what we look like on the outside, but what our heart looks like on the inside. After all, without love, we are nothing.

I couldn’t agree more in the fact that we need to be confident in our self -bodies included, however we would have to further understand what true confidence is and how we become confident. Pride is often mistaken as confidence, however pride is a fruit of insecurity as well. Even those that workout and are fit can hide behind their “bodies” and use the fact that they are fit and in shape as their confidence. This is definitely not true all of the time, but still happens from time to time. We are often told that “confidence” is being able to show your body without being embarrassed about it. If we undress in front of a camera, we are somehow “confident”. However, that is not confidence, because that kind of “confidence” is seeking approval from people, and succumbing to their opinions so you will be accepted and liked. Such actions are actually done out of a place of insecurity and searching for validation. True confidence, is not being afraid to be who you are unapologetically, being able to cover up and know that you are still beautiful. Truly confident girls, are the ones that can be “sexy” without having to broadcast it to the world. Confidence is silent, insecurity is loud. Confident people are not concerned about what others think about them, or the opinion of those that try to project their own insecurities onto them. I once saw a quote that said so accurately ‘confidence is not “they will like me” confidence is “I’ll be fine if they don’t” ‘. 

True confidence, can only come from God, and knowing that with Him you are capable of the impossible. Discovering who God has created you to be, regardless of what the world suggests you should be, breeds true confidence. There is no one more concrete than God. When we find our confidence in who He is, and who He says we are, we won’t need validation from other people, because. God didn’t create you to be like everyone else, He created you uniquely different from the rest of the world.

Crayon Box Legacy

Staring at a blank page must be amongst the top 10 intimidating things in life. Whether it's for an essay, or a book, a blank page always seems to be a little too intimidating. Why is this? Perhaps it's because the possibilities are endless and the unknown can be daunting. Day by day, and year by year, we face the "blank page" of life and are given the liberty to fill it up and write whatever we please on it. Sometimes we scribble, sometimes we color beautifully, whatever we decide to fill the blank page with, is completly up to us. We decide. God provides the crayon box, and gently advises which colors we should choose in order to create a beautiful master piece, but in the end, we are the ones that decide which color crayon we pick. When things go wrong in our life, we often blame God and say it was His fault, when in reality, it was the "bully" that got his crayon and colored on our paper -not God. On our blank piece of paper, we are at liberty to create whatever we set our minds to. However, the "bully" has convinced us that the only thing we should color on our paper is staying in the lines of the picture, never changing the color. But colors were created for a reason, and lines were never meant to stop us, but to guide us when we were young. Now that we are older, we must realize we have the freedom to create whatever we want. We must stop coloring in the lines, if we all color in the lines, we all end up with the same picture. It's the ones bold enough to color beyond the lines with the prettiest pictures, the ones that use a lot of color, and listen to the advisory to utilize the entire crayon box.

Sometimes, we stay "in the lines" because we are afraid of what people will think if we are different, but what would've happened if Picasso was like every other artist and stayed in the lines? What if he never truly expressed himself and his unique art? If we all color the same way, with the same color, staying carefully in the same lines, none of our pictures will look different. It's the ones that are bold enough to do something different, to look weird, to be uncomfortable, and to be made fun of. These are the ones that will be remembered, these are the pictures that will look different, these are the lives that will live forever. These are the ones that leave a rememberable, impacting legacy, such as picasso did. Picasso was willing to be judged and misunderstood for his crazy art work, but that didn't stop him. We must not be afraid to do what others think we shouldn't, simply because they, theirselves are to scared to. In the end, the only one that needs to "approve" of our "masterpiece" is God, and ourselves. Like a father, God loves our beautiful messy, pictures, in fact, those are His favorite. The ones that don't have it all together, the ones that aren't afraid to be who He has made them to be. After all, to others, it may be a scribbly mess, but to Him, it's a perfect masterpiece that couldn't be any more beautiful.

If you haven't been able to figure it out by now, the "blank page" is your life, your years, your days. The crayons and colors, is what you do, who you are, what you become, your family, your friends, and everything that makes up YOUR life.

Don't be afraid to be YOU. God created Picasso as well as Monet. Don't be afraid to be bold, and be different. Use all of the colors in the crayon box, you decide the outcome of your masterpiece.
Live beautifully, spread color, because you yourself, are a crayon in someone else's "blank page"-be sure you're a bright one!

"Process"

Process. A systematic series of actions directed to some end. Series of actions to achieve result. 

Everything in life we see and we know of, all exists because of this simple word. “process”. All things beautiful were created through a process.

Wether you realize it or not, we are always in some type of “process”. Some processes are more defining than others. The person you were at the beginning of the process will not be the same person will be at the end. 

The key to change, is process. Submit to the process and learn to embrace and love it. The process may be frustrating, painful and confusing at times, but I assure you, it’s all very necessary for the person you will be at the end of it.

I feel this year specifically has been a huge year of “process”. I myself, have tried bucking the process, stopping the process, and running from the process -but of course, that was also all apart of the “process”.

over the past 6 months, I’ve been going through a “process”. The person I am right now, on this November day, is not at all the same person I was in May. To be quite frank, I don’t even recognize that person. (Also, I apologize if you have encountered me during the time of this “process”, chances are pretty good I was crazy hahaha). 

If Esther hadn’t gone through her year preparation (or, process) before she was to go into the King, would the king have felt the same way about her?

Process, simply put, is “preparation” for the next thing to come in life. If you don’t go through the preparation and process, you won’t be able to handle the end result. the process is mandatory and absolutely necessary.

What were to happen if a caterpillar tried to break out of its cocoon before its time? The cocoon is a time of isolation, nothing can get in or out of it. If it feels like you’re all alone, know that God is doing something special, and in the end, He really is the only one who will be there for you. 

Embrace the Process. The process holds the wisdom you will need for what’s to come next. 

Stop thinking God is punishing you or has forgotten about you during the process. The process is hard, but I promise it will be worth it. He IS still there with you -even if it seems like He isn’t speaking. The teacher doesn’t speak during the test.

Like a lady pregnant with a baby, she must go through the 9 month process in order for that baby to be able to live and function properly in the world once it is born. 

When working out, the most frustrating and discouraging times can be after you’ve finished a workout. This is because sometimes, you just don’t see progress and often can feel you’ve lost ground. Lifting weights and pushing your body to it’s limits can be both physically exhausting as well as emotionally. but you know what? If you stick with it, keep your eyes on your goal, you overcome. You become stronger, not just in physical strength but more importantly, mentally. 

I know it can be hard, but just hold on. The end will come. The resistance you face today is the strength you will need tomorrow. 

Resistance always brings strength. Just wait, be patient. (The first thing love is, is patient!)

Gold isn’t made without a process of refining.

Butterflies aren’t made without cocoons.

Muscles aren’t made without weights (resistance)

...and cookies aren’t made without being baked! :D

Isaiah 40:31 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope”.

James 1:13-14 And remember, when you are being tempted do not say, “God is tempting me”. Go s is never tempted to do wrong, and He never tempts anyone else. Temptation comes from our own desires, which entice us and drag us away”

Proverbs 3:12 For the Lord corrects those He loves, just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.

P.S...you don’t know where others are at in life and where they are at in their “process”, you wouldn’t judge the beauty of a butterfly by its cocoon, so please, don’t judge them in their process either. Love, and be there for them. After all, love understands.

A Life of Legacy?

Two months ago, I was on my way to go skydiving for the first time with one of my best friends. When my friend called me (ten minutes out from arriving at the place)(-two hour drive!) and told me that it had been “cancelled” due to “weather” which didn’t really make sense because it was pretty outside. Confused, we both grudgingly accepted the news. Later after more investigation, we found out that a jumper had died and another was severely injured in a jump and ambulance and police were on the scene. Originally we were asked if we wanted to go at an earlier time, and we declined. After learning of this news, I somehow felt like I had escaped death, maybe I’m looking into it too much, maybe I’m thinking about it too much. But when you’re skydiving appointment gets cancelled because someone has just fell to their death literally two hours prior to your appointment, you can’t help but to take it in.
(I originally wrote this first part ^ the night it happened, I never posted it but saved it just as a document like several of my other writings)
However, tonight, I found out that a very dear friend of mine suddenly unexpectedly passed away at an incredibly young age. This friend was like an older brother to me, we saw each other every day since we went to the same Bible College, and then he even lived with my family for a period of time. He was very close to mine and my family’s heart. So when we heard the news, we were devastated. These two happenings have caused me to think so much about life and have raised questions and thoughts in my mind.
What is life? What are the things that really matter in life and how can I tell whether I’m spending my time on things that won’t really matter in the end or not anyway? Life is so short –such a cliché that we all hear but don’t really absorb or truly live by or understand. At the end of my life, I realize now, that it won’t be about all the bad things I’ve done (which I seem to focus way too much on because I think they matter and give them way more significance than I should) and it isn’t even about the good things I’ve done. But rather, the lives I’ve touched, the love I’ve given, the life I’ve brought to those in despair. It’s about how much of Jesus I let show in my life; it’s about how much I loved relentlessly, how much I risked showing love. After today, I can’t help but to ask myself, “What will my legacy be?” –suddenly everything I currently am concerned about or think matter doesn’t. How will I be remembered? Surely not by the things I’ve done (both good and bad) or the places I’ve seen. To be honest, if I would’ve died today, I am almost certain I would not leave behind the legacy I would want to leave behind. Yes, it would be nice to be known as someone who lives life to the fullest, but oh how much more precious it would be to be remembered as someone who lived life loving everywhere she went, and sharing Jesus and His love to everyone who came in contact with her. I want to be remembered as a living expression of love. This thing us as Christians throw around so lightly called our “calling” but what really is our “calling”? I believe our calling is right now, to this moment, this is the exact moment God has “called” me to live. We must stop looking and thinking of our “calling” as a destination we will one day arrive at somehow, but rather as a journey that we are living in, doing and walking in RIGHT now. Above everything, our “calling” is to love others like Christ loves us. The delivery may be different, each to their own how God designed for that individual, yes. But we are all “called” to love nonetheless.
Another thought;

I am a person with a face. But it isn’t my face that matters, it’s my heart. It’s not my face that you will remember, it’s my heart.
At the end of it, the number on the scale, how sexy you look, how much money you have, your position in your job, or your name in the hall of fame that matter. None of it. But what was the legacy you left behind? What will people remember you by? Will you be someone who always reached out and extended love? And did so with life and laughter? Or will you be one who was only focused on making YOUR dreams come true. I believe life is to be well lived, well enjoyed. I believe that completely. Live your life to the absolute FULLEST, Laugh, love and LIVE! BUT please, I beg you, don’t do it without impacting and touching every person you have the privilege of meeting. Everyone you meet you can impact (and will) in some way, positive or negative. Which will you be? Even if it’s the lady at the checkout lane who is having an attitude with you, will you extend love? Or will you react how she is? Because she just might as well be the one that dies when jumping out of a plane. If my life hasn’t reflected love up to this point, I apologize and plan to change that. If my life doesn’t reflect love, I’m doing it wrong. Please, share love everywhere you go. Everywhere you go, know God is with you, Know Him more so you can show Him more. Your time here is very short, what are you doing to make sure what you do goes on forever? What are you doing to impact the generations to follow you? What will your legacy be?