I was in church recently, and the Pastor got up began to say how Christ “covered” our sin and made us white as snow… I could NEVER understand this concept, I always just thought that meant that He erased our past and that was it. So automatically, in my mind, I thought of a pencil eraser, erasing what had been previously written by a pencil. I began to realize, this isn’t what the Word meant by “covering” our sin.
In fact, He didn’t “erase” my past… because erasing it would be taking away what had been previously written, but the pen in my own hand had already written my past, it couldn’t be “erased”, it was permantely there. I couldn’t change what had happened or what had been done. However, it could be covered.
Suddenly, I saw a white-out stick, going over what I had written in pen, it wasn’t “erasing” what I had written, but it was covering it instead. Making it like new, covering what was there, so it was all blank, and something new could be written over it. As a kid, I always thought white-out was like the coolest thing ever, because I could use a pen, and I could go over it with white-put and still write something new there! Haha …
I realized, Christ didn’t “erase” my past, but He has covered it. … just when I thought that was all good, the whole white out thing and all, how He went over my pen writing, and covered it with white-out… I thought that was it. I dwelt on that all day, I thought it was neat and all (which it was) but I had never asked Him why He did that, why He had just showed me the whole white-out deal thing. He later showed me (when I was listening and realizing that He had more to say haha) that He wasn’t done with me there at the white out. His blood was the white out, and my sin/past was the ink from the pen. When His “white-out” (blood) had gone over the ink on the paper from my pen (my past that I couldn’t (and can never) change) it covered it, not just so the past couldn’t be re read over and over…. But so He could write His story of redemption over that part.
So now, when I go back and try to re “read” that part of my life… I’m reading His writing, His story, of love, and of His grace and redeeming love. When I try to go back in my “journal” of life...and try to read and remember what I’ve done. Or when the devil tries to bring to my mind the reason I should feel that I’m incapable or disqualified from doing everything that God has called me to do. Instead, I’m reading of how Christ came and saved me, and COVERED my sin. I’m reading how He covered me, how He qualified me and how He made me capable.
Every person on earth, regardless of your background, whether you were brought up in a Christian home, if you never did any of the “major sins” or anything, we’ve all done things, thought things, etc that we aren’t proud of and that we would hate for others to see or know about us. We may even think “if they only knew what I’ve done, they would see me differently and they’d see how imperfect I really am”…regardless of what it is… there’s something that we are all not proud of in our past. BUT believe me when I tell you that God WILL cover it if you give it to Him, stop wrestling with Him, and just give it to Him, I’ve learned that wrestling with God is probably THE stupidest thing a person could do. Umm….. He’s stronger! Duh! Haha! :P Give it up, Give it to Him, forgive yourself, and realize He forgives you too. He isn’t going to erase your past, cause when you erase something, you still have the chance of being able to read it even if it’s gone (like when someone erases something with a pencil that they’ve written, the marks on the paper remain just lightly still making it able to read). He doesn’t want you to be able to read ANY of your past over again. Instead of erasing it, He’s going to cover it (once you allow Him too) He’ll cover it, and then write His love story over that part of your life, over that “chapter” in your book.
Give Him the pen, and let Him write the future of your life from this moment on, and shoooooottt let Him white out that past junk! :)
He didn’t erase my past; He covered it with His blood! :)
